The last few months of my life have been a struggle. Not in the sense that I had no food, or was stranded on a desert island or anything. But it was a struggle none-the-less. Work has been crazy, wedding planning is overwhelming, and the freaks outs that came along with accepting the union of marriage were painful at times. But I am finally ready! I want to be married. I am excited about being married, and at this point, I just want to get it over with, mainly because I miss Chas so much.

We are currently in the longest stretch of ever being apart that we have gone through. When all is said and done, it will have been 3 full months. That’s a long time!

Anyway, I have come to the point where I am just sick of feeling awful all the time. For about the last 2 months, I have been trying to eat cleaner. I can tell a difference in my body, which is great, plus I feel like I am recovering faster from my long runs. I have been sipping some bulletproof coffee lately, and while I have to carefully watch my MCT oli intake due to what it does to my stomach (holy nausea), I really love it! I have started lifting again too, which I truly think is a runner’s friend. It’s very easy to end up looking like you are wasting away when you are running as much as I am at this point.

My mood has been so sour lately, mostly because I felt overwhelmed by all there was to do. Last weekend, on a run of course, I decided that I wasn’t taking enough time for myself, and I was bitter about it. Work, run, sleep, repeat has been my cycle over the past few months. So every morning, I am taking about an hour to do something that I want to do. Sometimes I read, watch tv or watch YouTube videos, but just that one hour makes my mood totally different for the day.

I have also vowed to start writing more. Most of it has been done on our wedding website (jenandchas.com) to this point, but I am working to ramp up this site as well, as I have found great inspiration in other’s blogs lately.

I am happy to feel happy finally. I am happy to feel in love again. I am happy to be excited about what 2014 will bring. And I am excited to put it into words for you all to read.